Thursday, March 31, 2011

Faith and Callings

“Do you really have to move Rose?” Nyasha my best friend since second grade asked me with tears filled in her big brown eyes. “I could ask my mom and you can move in with us. We are like family and you know she won’t mind” This was probably the twentieth time in counting Nyasha had said that to me ever since I told her my family would be moving in 2 months.
“I told you before, dad won’t let me. We have to move in and live together as a family. That’s the whole idea, I already talked to him and he won’t let me.”  I said forcing back tears. I could feel my throat tighten and tears blinding my eyes.
I still could not believe this was happening. It was the most tragic thing ever. Everything was going well both in the neighborhood and in the ward. I had managed to convert my best friend and her family and they were now strong in the gospel. The cute guy in my ward whom I had a crush on for as long as I could remember was finally beginning to show interest in me. We had been on a couple of dates and each time I got back home, I would be in the most cheerful mood ever! Tatenda was tall and handsome. Every time he called my name, I thought I would melt. I had just been called to be president of the mia maids in young women. Things were perfect and now we just had to live that all behind and start all over again?
“Rose, it’s time to go home” my sister yelled from the family car. “I will call you tonight” I quickly said as I hurried to the car with my cheeks all covered in tears. The family was impatiently waiting for me as we had to hurry home and finish packing. We had all worn our best Sunday attire as this was going to be our last Sunday in the ward. The Bishop had allowed some time for me and my family to bear our testimonies and say our goodbyes, even though it wasn’t a Fast and Testimony meeting.
“You bore beautiful testimonies everyone, I am so proud of you” my mom said in her low sweet voice. “Rose” she continued, “do you know who is going to take over your calling?” I simply kept quiet. I was really having a hard time leaving. I seemed to be the only one who did not want to move. Both of my sisters were extremely excited and my brother too! I figured it’s because they didn’t have anything good going for them in the ward that’s why they didn’t care.
Tears flooded my eyes as I looked out the window at the neighborhood for the last time. Memories came flashing back. After what seemed like the longest drive home ever, we finally pulled in the driveway and I ran to my room.
“I don’t want to move” I yelled as I heard the door open. “Why not?” I looked up as I saw my little sister Edith walk in. She had just been recently baptized and was a sweet, understanding girl for her age. “Why don’t you want to move? It won’t be that bad. You will have me” I wiped my tears and squeezed her really hard. She was looking really cute in her white dress with pink flowers.
“Let me break it down to you, Edith.” I said as she sat next to me on my bed. “Moving really sucks. You live all your friends behind. You have start all over again and it’s tough. I don’t even have any friends in that ward, we don’t even know anyone in the neighborhood” I poured out my heart to her and how I didn’t want to leave Tatenda. She was really attentive as she listened to me going on and on.
Her simple reply was, “But Daddy says that’s where the Lord wants us to be. We must listen to him.” My mother walked in the room shortly after, calling us to eat lunch. She had worn her favorite purple African Brocade attire and looked really nice. It consisted of a white hat with a matching cloth she put over her shoulder. With a purple Dashiki top with black embroideries on the neckline and, a matching purple skirt.
“I will be out in a second” I replied. My little sisters’ words really got me thinking. Her two sentences continued to echo in my mind. I started feeling ashamed of myself. Clearly, I had overreacted. I had not even given a single thought to it that this is where the Lord wanted us to be. I had been selfish. All I ever did was think of how much I would miss my friends and how miserable I was going to be. I did not understand why we had to move. All my dad ever said was that’s were the Lord wants us to be. Why not here? We were happy weren’t we? I just did not understand and that’s why I felt so angry.
“Are you going to join us for lunch?” my dad’s deep voice interrupted my thoughts. “Your mom and I have something to tell the family” I simply nodded my head and followed him to the dining room. I sat at my usual place, next to my brother. He always found joy in teasing me. Ever since he could talk, all he ever seemed to do was make fun of me. It was our way of communicating I guess.
“The reason why we have to move to Highlands is because a few months ago I was interviewed and found worthy to be called to be a Mission President. Your mom and I were asked to keep it from everyone including you guys, until we received a call as to where we will be going. We got the letter this morning and haven’t opened it yet, we wanted to open it when the family was there.”
Wow! My siblings and I were really shocked. We did not see this one coming. In the midst of our shock, my dad came back to the room with a letter in his hand. “Open it!” we all shouted. We were all anxious to find out exactly where we would be moving to. He opened the letter and read “Zimbabwe Harare Mission” The room was filled with cheer and relief. It was good to know that we would still be in our home country. We would still have to move, but it was only an hours’ drive away from our home. That is where the mission home was located. I would still be able to visit Jake and Nyasha once in a while.
“Rose, I bet you just feel so bad right now” my brother turned to me and said in his teasing voice. I was about to say something mean to him and my dad said, “She just has to work on trusting the Lord and having faith just like Edith. She was okay with moving the very moment I told her it was where the Lord wanted us to be”
“Oh ye of little faith”, my sister who is 2 years younger than me teased.” You had nothing to worry about after all. I felt bad, I had over reacted, maybe if knew it was because of a calling I would have been okay with it. I smiled and apologized to the family.
“Now come on” my sister whispered “Let’s go and talk about how great it will be to be around all those cute missionaries in my room”
I was now very excited to move and could not wait.

Wednesday, March 23, 2011

Spiritually Strengthening

One of the aims of a BYU education is Spiritually Strengthening.I really like BYU.It is full of the spirit.I most enjoy the fact that most lessons start with either a prayer or a song.These always make me feel better especially when i am having a hard day.It feels like the song speak to me and encourage me to go on. A sweet, heartfelt  prayer from a classmate always spiritually uplifts me.
Recently in class, Sister Steadman shared a thought with us in class that really got me thinking.She was recently blessed with a grandchild and loves her so much.Her grandchild is still in the hospital and is receiving multilpe injections and operations on her small tiny body because she was born prematurely.Sister Steadman hurts when the baby hurts.She compared the love she feels for her grandchild with the love that Heavenly Father feels for us.
Surely we are all his children and when we hurt,he hurts.It just made me grateful and realize that He truly is mindful of us and our needs.She could not imagine any one else loving and caring for her grandchild more than she does.Think about the person you love the most,how you hurt when they hurt and how you want the best for them and compare it with the Savior's love for you.Isn't it amazing?
Imagine the love and care our Savior has for us.I am truly grateful to be His child.I know that He is mindful of me, he knows my pain.He hurts when i hurt.He wants the best for me.No,I am not alone, he is always by my side.What a great strengthening of my testimony this was.I am grateful that not only am i receiving circular learning here, but i am growing spiritually too.

The Honor Code

Whilst most people especially members of the church are well aware of The Honor Code, some people have no idea what its all about and that totally makes sense. Recently, Brandon Davies a forward on the men's basketball team was dismissed from the team shortly before the Mountain West Championships.BYU Basketball has been in the spotlight with Jimmer and his amazing shots.They had also been ranked no.3 something really big and so Davies' dismissal was such a huge blow.
Many people who do not understand The Honor Code have criticized this decision and called it stupid and untimely especially considering that the championship is at stake.Why couldn't they just wait and dismiss him after the tournament? What is the big deal with The Honor Code thing anyway?They are surely going to lose a lot of money.
These and many more questions have been in the media as people have tried to understand why BYU would do such a thing.After all they do not have a great replacement for him.BYU is a unique school with unique standards that people have to abide by.Upon being admitted to the school,one signs and agrees to live by The Honor Code.There are no exceptions.Rules are Rules.
In my opinion, i think that what really mattered was getting something bigger than a championship.Yes, it is a great thing to win a championship but it is even more bigger to get the message across to both students and non-students as well.It is an institution that has rules and whoever breaks them must be punished.
While many fans were devastated by the news, they accepted that it was necessary for him to be dismissed.Even though they might not win the Championship, this unfortunate incident has really showed everyone who follows college basketball what BYU is really about.
It is good to know that there is an institution which stands up for high morals in a world were premarital sex has become such an acceptable thing especially in college students.Although many people mock The Honor Code and call it unrealistic, a good number of people have liked it.One woman was heard to say 'I do not know much about BYU,but i like that school.There is something unique about it'
Indeed there is,the spirit of the Lord.

Sunday, March 13, 2011

Research Paper Thesis

For my research paper i have decided to search and write about video games.I am not a big video game myself and i do not understand why people decide to spend so much of their time on video games and not other things.Well maybe its because i never really played much of them to understand what the fuss is all about.My brother is a huge fan of video games, he spends so much of his time playing them that one would think he is an addict.I am worried about him and other people that may be addicted to video games.They do not want to confess that they are but i wonder whether violent video games have a positive or negative influence.
My thesis is still in the making but here is what i have so far. Are Violent Video Games to blame for Teenage Agression and Bad Behavior? or something like that.I am excited to be working on this paper and have already started as i look for sources i come up with a different thesis each time, but this is what i have so far and im excited to hear what the researchers have said about this!